Beginning the process of eliminating

I have begun the process of eliminating the things from my life that do not add value to my life and I have started with the decluttering of my house; not easy; bags and bags of trash, bags and bags of 'stuff' to donate and bags and bags of stuff that can be recycled.  My little house is full of bags and bags.... I also have a yard full of old equipment that no longer works, I have 4 lawn mowers that do not work, about a dozen old printers that are broken or never worked.  That elephant that I am eating "one bite at a time" is getting larger and larger.

Reinventing

http://1drv.ms/1jmHnga I think this link will get you into the pictures.


I have distractions and the pictures dispersal is one of the distractions.  I want everyone to see them and I am trying to link you up to my One Drive Favorites folder, hope it works.  I guess it is about time to get a more modern computer; if I can find the money. 

Emotional turmoil

So much emotion involved in getting all the conference bills paid and starting the reinvention of my life.  In addition to that emotion, my favorite little white dog, Skippy, died.  Skippy was a brat, a sweetheart, a wonderful little creature who; marked everything in the house, irritated all the other creatures in the house and would jump into my lap, look up with love in his eyes and snuggle.  He was a stray who has only been with me a few years but he was full of life and mischief, and died unexpected.
By the time I get all the bills paid for the conference, I will be in the red about $4500.00, not that I can afford that, it took all my bank account and Lonna gave me $2000 from her account.  I will never do that again!!!  I have to just shake off the mistakes that I make and go on with life.  Everyone is willing to tell me how to do that but it is not as easy as it sounds.   I am alive and well and ready to start over.
Yesterday I did start my de-cluttering of my life: cleaned the glove compartment, cleaned up my computer desktop and started erasing some people from my e-mail and facebook pages. Today I will continue by starting one room in the house and continue working on the computer clean-up. The steps to this reinvention are small but I have to continue to care for my now 11 dogs, my cats, the goats and Janet the old mare.  I allow the pleasure of watching some baseball games on TV and reading on my Android/Kindle.   

The Holistic Lifesaving Conference is over and I know for a fact that it changed lives and the information gained was great. I am so sorry that more people did not want to learn how to be well and stay well. There is such a need but many like to be sick and stay sick. It is a shame and I think it is a sin.  Many of the things said by Dr. Donald Mayfield concerned letting your body heal itself and how to do that.  Dr. Joan Vernikos showed us how to stay healthy by using such small actions, as long as we are consistent with movement.  Everyone should hear these two experts and learn from them. When I figure my expenses and the income, there is about $4000 that has to be made up from the bank accounts of Lonna and me. I have learned my lesson, I think, and I won't count of help from others in the future. Some people who just could not pay full ticket and have lunch, ended up in the dining room, eating a free $25 meal, so crude, others frowned on the price and took advantage of me. ok, that is enough griping and complaining.
Starting today those people will not be in my life any more and I will have only the people that add value to my life around me. Today I have to go to the bank, settle all accounts for the rooms for my speakers at the hotel and then I am going to start eliminating all clutter (including people that do not add value to my life) from my life.  I am going to reinvent my life and will be completely changed by October 7, 2014, my 80th birthday.

Disappointment and Regret

I think that so much unhappiness comes from regret and disappointment.  We let those feelings sneak into our life and sometimes they are really difficult to remove. Since there is nothing that can be done regarding regret and disappointment, we should be able to just shake them off and get on with life but it is not as easy as it seems.  Today those feelings come into my life for many reasons but this morning as I wish my youngest sister a happy birthday, I think about her wellness and how I have not been able to help her be well and stress free, and regret that I have not made different decisions in order to help her more.  I also think about this day as the anniversary of my other sister's death and regret that she made the wrong decisions that cost her; her life.  She let her physicians kill her and I regret that I was not able to convince her to change her lifestyle and make better decisions.

There are so many people in my circle of acquaintances that are leading parallel lives to those of my sisters and I become overwhelmed with disappointed because I cannot help them change their lifestyle and make decisions that will make their lives longer and better.  The old saying that "you can take a horse to the water but you can't make him drink" is so true.  I have stressed myself so much trying to make "them drink" when all I can do is offer the water; so frustrating.  Maybe if the sun would shine, thoughts would be more uplifting......