Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Looking forward to 2015

I am really full of gratitude for the things and people who have touched my life during this holiday season, most of all the gift of a wonderful car.  Gift from friends and spearheaded by CC and Tamera.  It is awesome to have such great caring friends.  God blesses me every day of my life even thought I sometimes do not see something that happens as a blessing, turns out that it is a blessing. 
I sometimes forget to say that I appreciate the things that are happening in my life, I am really grateful!
Holiday dogs, only two remaining, have been so good and I do appreciate the fact that there are animal lovers who love and care for their pets.  The cold weather is a reminder that not all pets are loved and cared for, my little stray dog that has been eating on my front deck and is so in need, he will not let humans near him/her and is so shaggy and uncared for, just hoping he makes it through the winter.
I am looking forward to next week when I will be able, with my new wheels, to visit friends, teach class, etc.  I am loving the fact that I do not have to get out if the weather is bad.  I spent so many years struggling to get to work in bad weather and felt that I aged many years on those days and I really feel sorry for the people who have to be out in the bad weather trying to get to a job..
With funds from some of the sleepover dogs, I plan to have a storage building so I can finish de-cluttering my house.  Looking forward to 2015!!

Sunday, December 21, 2014

just thinking

Most everyone knows that I am a crazy old lady and you will know that firmly when you read my writing today. I recently saw a beautiful loving dog who is tied when outdoors and kenneled when indoors and as I looked into his eyes, I saw only love and kindness.  Look into the eyes of your pet and see what is there, if you do or do not believe in reincarnation, it does not matter just imagine for a moment that that pet might, just might be the reincarnation of someone who was chosen by God to return as a pet.  God can do what he wants and I don't care whether there is reincarnation or not but just for a moment let your imagination take over and see if you are treating your pet as you should.  When I look into the eyes of the pets at my house, I say; "I love you and care about you",  if you can do that, your attitude and the attitude of the animal will change.  The pets at your house feel your pain, your depression, your anxiety and all that is going on in your home.  Just put your hands on that dog, cat, horse, etc. and tell them that you love them.  When I am loving my pets, I don't care what my friends, acquaintances or family members, think about me: I am loved by these creatures from God and I am thankful for that fact...... 

Monday, December 15, 2014

changes

Twenty Seven years ago, a lady from Bella Vista Community Church ask that I help her put together luncheons once a month for the women who were, Solos, living without a mate.  We planned it and started the luncheon the first Saturday of each month, a few years later we changed it to the 2nd  Saturday to avoid having it on the day that my daughter, Penny, was getting married.
At first when I was doing it, before my family took it over, I made centerpieces, planned a program, take home napkin rings, fixed the food and served it, etc.  After the luncheon and as we were cleaning up, many of the women played cards and had more coffee, hot tea and ice tea. 
Last week because of so many conflicts in schedules and no one to carry on the planning, it was discontinued.
My granddaughter has been in attendance and helping the family since birth, the ladies have watched her grow up, go to college and get married.
Attendance is about half the number it was when we started and had only 27 women last week.  When we started I made cloth napkins and we always used them, had 50 Christmas napkins, the red ones we could use for February, May, June, July and September as well as Christmas. The green ones could be used in March or for spring. We always had a prize for someone, the person might just have a lucky napkin or a note under their plate.  It was fun while it lasted....

Thursday, December 11, 2014

I am so unhappy with my choices that I must write. Many, many  weeks ago, a friend? neighbor? maybe just acquaintance, messaged me that she needed to find a temporary place for her jack Russell terrier mix that she could no longer keep. "would I keep her for a couple of weeks while she found a home for her?" She said that within 2 weeks she would find a home for her and that she would give me money for the food, etc. that was required for her existence.  I know that everyone sees a sign on me that says, "I am a doormat, walk on me every chance you get." but I guess that is a choice that I made some time ago, just to be a door mat.
I could not remember the dogs name when I needed to correct her (many, many times) so Ebola being the most popular choice of words at the time, became her name, she was very food aggressive so really would have not survived  in a shelter because it would be immediate death chamber for her.  I finally trained her not to be food aggressive, and after many destroyed electrical cords, she has finally quit eating them but she is still very hard to deal with and has just about completely destroyed my patience. Most of may dogs do not want her near them and when a guy offered to take her as an "outside dog", I should have said yes but I do not believe that there are pets that are outside all the time. I wish I did not have to close off the rest of the house when I sleep (if I don't, she will destroy something) If she were an only dog or with just one other dog she could be trained but not in my household. 
As the old saying goes, "I made my bed and I have to lie in it", "I make my own choices in life".  and I believe in those old sayings but it does not help the situation at this point, in addition to being so disappointed in other people, I have really made a big mistake, this time.
At the time, since  I was not born yesterday, I knew I was being used but everyone knows that I cannot stand to see a dog unloved or destroyed and they know my soft spots. 
Ebola is happy but I am very unhappy and stressed out!! I had no idea that at 80 years of age, I would be living such a life but, I made my choices, as bad as they are....