Monday, April 7, 2014

Disappointment and Regret

I think that so much unhappiness comes from regret and disappointment.  We let those feelings sneak into our life and sometimes they are really difficult to remove. Since there is nothing that can be done regarding regret and disappointment, we should be able to just shake them off and get on with life but it is not as easy as it seems.  Today those feelings come into my life for many reasons but this morning as I wish my youngest sister a happy birthday, I think about her wellness and how I have not been able to help her be well and stress free, and regret that I have not made different decisions in order to help her more.  I also think about this day as the anniversary of my other sister's death and regret that she made the wrong decisions that cost her; her life.  She let her physicians kill her and I regret that I was not able to convince her to change her lifestyle and make better decisions.
There are so many people in my circle of acquaintances that are leading parallel lives to those of my sisters and I become overwhelmed with disappointed because I cannot help them change their lifestyle and make decisions that will make their lives longer and better.  The old saying that "you can take a horse to the water but you can't make him drink" is so true.  I have stressed myself so much trying to make "them drink" when all I can do is offer the water; so frustrating.  Maybe if the sun would shine, thoughts would be more uplifting......

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